A Letter to Money: Reflections on Power, Purpose, and Perspective
As a child, my understanding of money was innocuous and simple. It was the $20 bill my mom handed us for snacks at the convenience store. My blissful ignorance to your formidable power changed dramatically with my stepdad's entrance into our lives. The stark shift from community pools to a country club lifestyle unveiled the layers of safety, security, belonging, and esteem you could facilitate. This dichotomy between my mom's hardworking ethos and my stepdad's glimpse into a lavish life you could provide shaped my early relationship with you.
In high school, inspired by my parents' ascent to millionaire status, my ambitions soared to billionaire dreams. I craved opulence—Canary diamonds, Lamborghinis, and high-fashion labels filled my visions of the future. However, life had other plans. From dreaming of billion-dollar mansions, I found myself in section 8 housing, preaching to a congregation of ten in a small, rainy town. This stark contrast, chosen rather than imposed, became my classroom under God's guidance, teaching me about you from a spiritual perspective.
Scriptures like "The love of money is the root of all evil" and teachings about the challenges of wealth in spiritual journeys introduced a new dimension to my understanding of you. As a preacher, banker, and community leader, I learned that you are not inherently evil but a tool whose impact is determined by how we wield you. Supporting the church and community initiatives required money, challenging me to work hard and create multiple streams of income.
By 24, sitting on a board alongside financially successful individuals, I observed that money itself doesn't corrupt; rather, it's our relationship with it that defines our path. This realization was tested as I veered off my spiritual and sober path, drawn into a life of pleasure and excess, redirecting my generosity from the church to my new pursuits. The pursuit of pleasure, however enticing, led me to a professional and personal crisis, forcing me to seek guidance.
The intervention came through a coach with an interest in astrology, who highlighted the importance of spiritual connection in my life. This unexpected encounter with astrology and a revised perspective on spirituality led me to reassess my life's direction. Reflecting on my time in the small town, I recognized that those who were truly fulfilled pursued purpose, love, and belonging over mere financial gain or fleeting pleasures. They invested in family, community, and nature, finding a balance between celebration and meaningful contributions to the world.
This journey of rediscovery has brought me to a place of spiritual richness, understanding the true value lies not in the relentless chase for money or pleasure but in purpose, love, and a commitment to making a difference. Money, I've learned, is a powerful tool—a means, not an end. It's a resource that, when aligned with God's will, the collective good, and the pursuit of love, can facilitate incredible outcomes.
So, to you, Money, I hold neither love nor disdain but a deep respect for your potential. My allegiance lies with a higher calling, guided by purpose, love, and the commitment to be a force for good in the world. I acknowledge your necessity in this life, all the while understanding you are not my ultimate aim.
